it's been awhile since i posted anything, but that's more to do with life moving than nothing to blog about. I am starting a fun short journey, so i thought about starting a journal for it. I think blogging here where i open up occasionally is a better choice.
So what am i up to?
For June, July & August i am vegging out. No not relaxing, although that would be preferred. i am going vegetarian. i am doing this for the let's just see reason mostly, and health reasons, too. I will say , however, if the Cubs look like they are headed for pennant at the end of August, i may never touch meat again. one can't be too careful. i could do that for them.
I am not jumping into deep waters with this. I plan to include dairy, eggs and maybe fish. For me, fish options have always been limited but maybe a Lenten like Friday Fish day once in awhile. i am not sure how well i will do. most meat, especially red meat will be easy to pass over. Meat candy (aka bacon) will be sorely missed but i'm ok. i am fairly certain, though, when Eddie gets some yummy things from the international grocery store i am in real danger. if he starts cooking with that German knockwurst or bratwurst, i will fall like a pagan in front a golden idol. somethings are just beyond will power.
This little blog will not turn into the instagram facebook picture of every meal thing. promise. Instead, i want to post highs, new discoveries, falls on my face, and if this journey is something i would like to continue. I have a health site i belong to that will help me monitor not just weight loss (or lack of) but inches lost . I have been trying to lose weight for a very long time. i have refused to diet for a long time now, too. It is a math equation. Less in plus quality in vs. activity out. Despite any book ever printed, it is that and always always has been. i've lost 32 in the last couple of years and have come to a plateau. In that time i have also struggled with of very stressful private journey/hell. i am in a much better, much happier place personally since this time last year. Frankly, this time last year compared to now miraculous. i feel like i shed an old skin with not just myself, but also in the wonderful relationship with the love of my life, by walking through fire and making it out intact. While that journey is continuing to heal and evolve, this one with overlap. I think part of the reason behind the summer veg out is to kick start my metabolism and shed some of physical to go along with the inner Melissa.
i am finally growing up. i think, for me anyway, growing up is gradual lifetime process. Last year when life burst into flames. i had to face some personal demons of my own. i had to take the responsibility for a lot of those flames. I am stronger now. i am, hopefully, more mature about somethings. i still refuse to "grow up" or put away rose covered glasses, but that is a choice i make with eyes wide open. This SVO is kinda like a Lentenish fast. In my teens and very early twenties i was nearly a vegetarian. if Ed wasn't around, i didn't cook or eat meat. i didn't even know how to cook red meat, other than hamburger, when we got married. I am trying to find Melissa again. Part of me in the last 2 decade got lost. i guess this is my half brained way of driving a Delorian to look for her. I can't really do that this way, i know, but still...
Anyway, there to the summer! bring on the zucchini! Go Cubs!
