Megan turns 20 in a bit over a month & Isaac leaves home for VU shortly after that. They are not the little babes I still picture in my head. So why with such grown kids do I still manage to miss out? Unfortunately I knew that I would miss the Hanging of the Greens at church, but I find out by text from Diana that the Youth Choir is singing. SIGH! Knowing my kids the way I do, I would bet that Isaac forgot and Megan didn’t want me to have to take a day off. But my point is, just how many more chances do we have left to do these family things. Looking back, I sometimes feel like I missed opportunities to squeeze more memories in. Is this why grandparents spoil grandbabies? Maybe it isn’t revenge but regret? Making up for time felt lost… So how much more does my parents or grandparents feel now about all this time gone, since we all live so far apart? They have missed so much more than us. I ache to be near my dad, Opa Jack… so I guess this longing for a child or a parent never really goes away does it? I am not simply melancholy over the holidays. For me this started weeks and weeks ago laughing with my cousin David about family reunions past. Then came a missed call tag game that nobody won with Dad. 35 miles apart, Eddie is blogging about missing his Mom and I am trying to text my Dad without a clue what each other was doing on Thanksgiving Day. It is all just starting to get to me. Tonight’s text from Diana about a church gathering I was already sorry to miss just tipped the scale. I guess the “icing on the cake” is all that holiday music that fills all the radio stations this time of year complete with smells and visions of yesterday.
Megan turns 20 in a bit over a month & Isaac leaves home for VU shortly after that. They are not the little babes I still picture in my head. So why with such grown kids do I still manage to miss out? Unfortunately I knew that I would miss the Hanging of the Greens at church, but I find out by text from Diana that the Youth Choir is singing. SIGH! Knowing my kids the way I do, I would bet that Isaac forgot and Megan didn’t want me to have to take a day off. But my point is, just how many more chances do we have left to do these family things. Looking back, I sometimes feel like I missed opportunities to squeeze more memories in. Is this why grandparents spoil grandbabies? Maybe it isn’t revenge but regret? Making up for time felt lost… So how much more does my parents or grandparents feel now about all this time gone, since we all live so far apart? 
1 comment:
the time has indeed flew past. as for not telling you, neither told me about the choir singing either, but that is not entirely unusual.
best thing to do is treasure the memories and moments you have shared rather than rue the ones "that got away".
i like your idea of grandparents spoiling grandbabies as a result of regret. there may be something to that. if that's the case we should get our chance later.
another aspect of that is usually by the time you are a grandparent you don't have kids at home that affect your normal budgeting so that allows them luxuries you, as a parent, seldom have. additionally, as grandparents you may be feeling the "empty nest" thing and having time with the grandkids helps to fill a void. i don't know i am just guessing, here.
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