10.10.2010

peeks at my journal part 1

I came home late last night and of course megan was snoozing on the red couch over at Grandpa’s.  She did eventually wake up and try to chat a bit.  It was completely unfair to both of us and completely selfish of me.  We managed to get to Sunday School early since she was teaching with me nursing an energy drink.  I only got half a night’s sleep.  She was struggling to stay awake during church and it was a good service, she is just so worn thin.  I feel guilty keeping her up.  The youth were going on a wonderful hike today to Max Patch in the Smokey Mountains.  Denise and William are back in the States and are going on the hike.  I really wanted to go with everyone, but of course I am working.  Megan and I rush to Food City to get her some food for the hike.  As we are leaving the church she knows something is wrong and I firmly deign any such thing.  I don’t think she bought it.  It isn’t just one thing and we have no time to talk; mostly what is bothering me can’t be fixed so what’s the point.  It’s her, us; I miss my deep friendship with her.  She is too busy and that is only proper for everything that is on her plate.  I can’t blame her, make her feel guilty, or even fix it.  Time will heals such things…

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