christmas time

I want a tree
& more than that
I want to trim it with carols and laughter 
Christmas memories made new 
traditions old
& more than that
dreams once laid to rest come about
I want 
i want
want want want...
is it wrong to want those things i can't have
not sure,
but still
i want
gold ribbons, tinsel, old ornaments, evergreens, smell of cinnamon & spice
dusty dreams, suitcases that are travel weary, & plenty of such
sigh
bring on the mulled wine and rum laced eggnog.
not that Christmas time is blue, just the opposite 
magical glittering red, jolly and warm 
i want it to be such is all i am trying to say