Patsy
Clairmont said "You are the sum of the 5 people you hang around the most."
I heard that Saturday morning at WOF and it has really punched through my
skull. Christine Caine, Amy Grant, Marilyn Meberg and others all
said wonderful things, meaningful things, wise words, but i am still digesting
Patsy's words. If you take this thought about the 5 people, then there
are ripple effects everywhere. Knowing who i am around all the time, i wonder
if...I talked about this to a rather wise dear friend. She thinks that if
Patsy is right that is why i am sad and depressed a lot. So if two
people, who are dealing with heavy weighty life issues, are around each other every
day, are they feeding each other's sadness instead of lifting one another out
of it? Is there a way to stop the cycle and start new ripples? Like
the parables we are flipping around in Sunday school class, if you flip this
around whom am i effecting? Does my sadness rub off on the other people
that hold me dear and choose to be around me? Is this why someone would
choose not to be around me, like a bad aura if you will?
(and if mr eddie is reading this,
and if mr eddie even suggests that mrs eddie remove herself from his presence
for her own good one more time ...i'll...i'll..., well i don't know what i'll
do, but it'll be something... that ISN'T a solution, anyway hun. it is at best
a tiny band-aid on a sore & starting a open wound elsewhere)
Some people we just can't help but
spend time with. (and i DON'T mean your better half) How we let them inside and
what we allow them to do are two different things. We don't have to let
them hurt us inside. That sounds nice but it doesn't really work as easily in
the real world as it does to type it in cyberspace. "How we stop the pain
and prevent it from hurting us?” is the real question. How do you build up a
shield that is in place to prevent flaming arrows but still removable so that
we don't become unreachable to others? Pop's can be sweet and generous
but normally it's on his terms only. His circumstance has
understandably allowed him to choose bitterness. There has to be a way
to repel this fog of bitterness that seeps and creeps into every part of
our lives.
Ok people i don't have the answer. i
was kind of asking if anyone else had a clue.
